The Fault in Our Stars (If you're looking for spoilers, go somewhere else)

Tonight, I finished TFiOS after buying it in an airport kiosk six days before. I have several good reasons for not finishing it sooner. I didn't want to break down crying in Spanish class, for one, and I was out of town for most of the time that I had it. But really, aside from it being incredibly sad, I didn't want it to end.

I'm not a crier, normally. There have been like three books that I've read that have made me cry, and TFiOS bypassed them all in frequency of crying and the amount I did. I was crying, hard, when I finished it. It's incredibly heartbreaking, and incredibly lovely.

Hayley Hoover said something in her blog post about not wanting to share TFiOS with other people. When I first read her post tonight, I didn't understand. But when I finished the book, I understood. The emotions that I felt with this book, the passion and intensity I felt for it, I didn't want to share that. I didn't want to share Augustus Waters. It's like Hazel says in reference to An Imperial Affliction, that it's the kind of book that's "so special and rare and YOURS that advertising your affection feels like a betrayal." That's the way I feel about TFiOS.

This book was fantastically written and it was full of emotion and wit and humor. Hazel Grace and Augustus speak in a way that I only wish people would speak in real life. I aspire to write conversations between people that are that poised and witty and intelligent. There is nothing that could make this book better than it is.

This book was horribly heartbreaking and incredibly witty and hilarious. There wasn't a time while reading that I didn't feel something; be it humour or loss or terrible sadness. And that's what I want in a book: to feel something. It's perfect. It's extremely beautiful.

I'm sorry if this post is kind of scattered and inconsistent and weird, but tonight I finished this book that made me feel like my emotions have been taken and tied into knots and put back, and I don't know what to do with it. And now, I'm probably going to read it and go through that again. I don't expect anyone IRL to understand this, and if anyone will it's Nerdfighteria.

Until next time

xx D

Important life events (sort of)

It's been a while since I posted a post that makes since to someone other than myself and that I didn't type up on my iPod, but I have a good reason! My computer kind of... broke. But it wasn't my fault!... As far as I know. Basically the hard drive crashed and I lost everything I had saved including all of my novel that wasn't in my email. So that was nice. But also beside the point. Not that there is one, ever.

I started this post about a week ago and then I forgot I was writing it and it then became moot because everything I had written about then happened. So here's a recap of my life:

 Earlier today I auditioned for the play that my school is putting on. I'm not expecting much of it because I didn't really want to audition in the first place but was bullied into it. Because I'm easily persuaded to do things that I don't want to do. That's a fun fact about myself.

Tomorrow morning I'm leaving for Texas to be holy and do church things. And also to play basketball. I don't play basketball. It's going to be interesting.

My first semester of school ended today. I didn't clean out my locker although I was supposed to. I got an A in math like I wanted to so badly.

I downloaded Skype. I'm still really confused.

In orchestra we went to see the Utah symphony and then it ended with my friend falling on the floor of the bus when we were getting back to school.

The first yearbook deadline for my yearbook class is on Tuesday. We aren't ready. It's interesting.

I keep getting confused because 2012 is different than 2011. Not sure why I don't just automatically realize that.

I got an iTouch for Christmas and then today successfully connected to my schools WiFi and then wasn't able to go on Tumblr during my audition because of web blockers. That made the audition process much more boring because people were giving me dirty looks for having my earphones in while other people read from the script.

Someone who I'm not friends with on Facebook made her status: "You never know how STRONG you are... until being strong is the ONLY choice you have." So naturally, I read it like she was screaming "Strong" and "Only" at me. So that's a thing.

My life is actually really boring so I don't see how this will be interesting to anyone, including myself. More quality stuff is happening up in here all the time.

Until next time
xx D